11 lbs......

What!! Why didn't I think of this meal choices thing a long time ago? I am down 11 lbs since Monday - I am sure a lot of it is water, but I am certianly not complaining. I guess some of it can be contributed to the fact that I have been trying to walk every night also. So the exercise and the healthy eating must be working. I am so excited!! I think that when you see results even if they are small they truly make a huge difference for motivation. I am over the top today. I can't believe it 11 lbs since Monday!! I am sure it will slow down next week as I don't want to lose it to fast that I can't keep it off, but I am also not complaining either.

Today should be a nice spring day so a walk in the park this afternoon/evening should be a great way to get moving. I love that the weather is getting nicer and that I can walk outside - I do have a membership to a gym however sometimes I just can't motivate myself to stay inside when it is so nice outside. I am so excited that I have started this new journey. I also found out that I like green peppers - me - I like them......WHAT!! Did I just say I like green peppers - yep that is certainly what I said. I never even knew that I liked them and I am 34....guess I have never really thought about it and just said no because I thought I didn't like them. I think sometimes you are trained at a young age to not like certain things and you just go through life believing that you don't.......

Well I am out of here for now....be back tomorrow for more. :)

Meal Choices

So it has been a super long time since I have blogged about anything. My life got really crazy and things got crazy and blogging seemed to take to much time, but I realized that blogging is really a type of therapy and so I can't stop and really need to start again, so here it goes.

I have started this new plan called "meal choices" it is a local catering company and they prepare all the food and then deliver it or you can pick it up, same idea as like nutrisytem etc.... but it is all local and fresh food not pre packaged foods....the food is similar to what you would eat if you were doing the Southbeach diet - low carb. Super yummy and really worth it, I have lost 8 lbs in the last 3 days which I am sure is partially water, but I am super proud of myself. I plan to do this for 3 months and see where it takes me and if it works then I will live it for life.... I want to be healthy and this is a really good way to do it. I have already found that I enjoy eating healthier foods it makes me feel better. I also can't help but thinking about all the benefits of living a healthier lifestyle. I am so happy that I have made this choice and am excited to be on my journey to a new me again. :)

Donughts are the Devil....

Well at least that is what I said this morning. Tomorrow it is a lady here at works birthday and they brought donughts in....I had to pretend they are the Devil that way I will stay away from them.....even though I know I can have one if I really wanted to flex my points but I have other things I would rather have and the donught really didn't even look that good. I made a breakthrough.....haha!! All in all I have decided like I said in a previous post that everything really does revolve around food. I am certainly an emotional eater and read in Confessions of a + sized girls blog about a book called "A guide to compulsive eating" by Geneen Roth, I am thinking of checking it out. I also read that several other people have read books by her including "Breaking Free from Emotional Eating". I know alot of people don't watch the show Ruby because of course she is going to lose weight having a trainer and all the tools at her fingertips but I believe that she is a real person with real struggles. I can relate to her emotional eating habits because I am the same way.....if I am having a bad day I turn to food, if I am mad about something I turn to food. I am starting to overcome those struggles but that is just it they are struggles and as long as I pick myself up from those struggles then eventually I will no longer struggle with them. Every day is a new day and with new days come new challenges it is just the way life is. :) Well I am glad I didn't cave for the donught...... Go Me! I didn't make it to Zumba last night, to much drama going on at home but I am going to go next week Tuesday. Saturday is out because it is during the time I am getting my hair did..... I really want to go!!! Until next time:)

4.8 - - Setbacks = GAME ON!

So I am down 4.8 lbs since I started this journey. I have had a few set backs but GAME ON now! I am switching my meeting nights however. Monday nights the leader just isn't a "GREAT" leader. I really like the Thursday night meetings and the lady is Awesome....she is like a bohemian woman .... she doesn't shave and it is freaking me out, but she is great at what she does and motivating me. I think the class being full helps also because there is so much more insight then the Monday night meetings. I have made up my mind I am switching nights! :) I feel pretty good about my loss though. I have only been going to meetings for 3 weeks and last night was my 3rd meeting. So I am excited about that. I now just need to go and stock up on some groceries this weekend so that I have healthy snacks around the house instead of the normal junk food that used to be in the house. I love snacking on fruits, I just need to keep them in the house....I did good the first week and had fruit all over....but we ate it all. :( I think I ate so much fruit that I am surprised I didn't turn into one.
I can't wait till this day is over..... I am also waiting for my son to take a nap. I am lucky though because I get to work from home on Monday's however this week I needed to work from home today so I am able to. I love being able to work from home....I have decided though that you have to really be dedicated to work from home. It is so hard to sit at the computer for 8 hours during the day when you have laundry, cooking, cleaning and other things to do. I could be doing a lot of things besides sitting here cleaning out my emails.... wait I am doing something I am writing this blog! But if you catch my drift then you know what I mean tha working from home is difficult. Well I guess I should get back to work and hope that soon my son will take a nap and realize I only have until 2:30 and then I am off for the weekend! I can't wait to see what this weekend will bring, hopefully it will be a fun and eventful weekend....until next time. :)

Why is it so freaking COLD!!!!

I am freezing! Yes that is right....downright cold. I swear this place I work in can never get it right, dress for winter in the summer....dress for summer in the winter. I mean who wears a coat inside the office when it is 90 + degrees outside.... ME...yep that is right ME..... WTF? So today has started out as a pretty good day. I went to the gas station this morning and bought me a big huge Ice Tea! Yum, my favorite drink.... I think I drink 2 of these 44oz drinks every day. :) This morning I left my Zune in my car and had to go get it....I can't stand not having something to listen to during the day. My Zune is my savior I have decided.....I don't know what I would do without it. I love listening to it at work and in my car and when I am walking at night..( haha) I need to start doing that walking. I nedd to get in the groove and find a workout that works for me. Has anyone heard about Zumba? A girl at work highly recommends it and says that you will never get bored once you start doing it because it is always new and fun. I am thinking about trying it sometime next week. I will let you know what I think and if it is worth it. I am excited today is my last day in the office and then I get to be home for the next 4 days - 2 of them I will be working, but working from home and there is nothing better than working from home. I love it, I can get things done like laundry on my breaks/lunch and I get to listen to the television. I think the only thing that is bad about working from home is when there is nice weather and you would rather be doing anything outside then working.... I am also sad as our pool closes next weekend....that is a sign that Summer is almost over and that Winter is on its way...however it is also a sign that I am getting closer to my Vacation that I have planned next year. I am way excited for it...... I will write more on that in another post. Need to get back to work..... Peace Out! :)

I am tired of being a Victim...

I have decided I am tired of being a victim. I feel like I am a victim to a lot of things but I am mostly a victim of food. I am cheated by myself because I feel that anytime I get emotional or have stress in my life I turn to food. It is like a drug to me, I can see how people can get addicted to drugs.... because I am addicted to food and I don't think there really is any difference. When I am sad I feel like eating, when I am happy I feel like eating...it is like anything we do revolves around food. Holidays, birthdays, parties....everything revolves around food. I have become a victim...not because I wanted to be a victim but because I allow myself to be a victim. I need to decide that I will no longer allow myself to be this victim. I had a few set backs over the past weekend and it really threw me for a loop and then yesterday I had some dental work and got sick....ugh have I told anyone lately how much I hate going to the dentist?? I only have to go back a few more times and then the dental work will be over.
So my goal is to get healthy, quit letting food dictate what I do and how I live. Change the things in my life that potentially drag me into this rut.... I want to be happy with me and sometimes that is a challenge in itself. I can do this I know I can....my mind is set and I need to quit having these crazy set backs and these crazy arguements with myself. This is my life, my only life and I need to make the best of it and live life to the fullest. :)

Chinese Food is EVIL!

So I have decided today that Chinese food is "EVIL" yes that is what I think. I mean take this Orange Chicken for example..... today it was calling me..... I know you want me, I mean look at me I am so Hot and good for you.... Ugh! I caved!! I know shoot me..... I guess dinner tonight will be lettuce and spinach.... and then a good kick me in the Ass workout after..... :) I know I can't deprive myself of certain things but I could have the will power to think about my choices a little longer, right across from the Chinese place was Subway but I had that for lunch yesterday. Back to the drawing board, back to bringing lunch from home - the smart thing I have done for almost the last 2 weeks. If I don't have a plan that is when I end up failing.....today I didn't have a plan. I planned yesterday to go to Subway....from the minute I got up I was going to Subway...but today I didn't know what I was going to do. I am accountable for the Orange Chicken and I figured out the points - SKYROCKET amount....but I still have the rest of today and tomorrow is a new day on my path to success.... I can do this I have the will power, I just need to make it happen. I do better when I bring my food from home. I just need to make it happen...one step at a time.