Thursday, August 20, 2009

I am tired of being a Victim...

I have decided I am tired of being a victim. I feel like I am a victim to a lot of things but I am mostly a victim of food. I am cheated by myself because I feel that anytime I get emotional or have stress in my life I turn to food. It is like a drug to me, I can see how people can get addicted to drugs.... because I am addicted to food and I don't think there really is any difference. When I am sad I feel like eating, when I am happy I feel like is like anything we do revolves around food. Holidays, birthdays, parties....everything revolves around food. I have become a victim...not because I wanted to be a victim but because I allow myself to be a victim. I need to decide that I will no longer allow myself to be this victim. I had a few set backs over the past weekend and it really threw me for a loop and then yesterday I had some dental work and got sick....ugh have I told anyone lately how much I hate going to the dentist?? I only have to go back a few more times and then the dental work will be over.
So my goal is to get healthy, quit letting food dictate what I do and how I live. Change the things in my life that potentially drag me into this rut.... I want to be happy with me and sometimes that is a challenge in itself. I can do this I know I mind is set and I need to quit having these crazy set backs and these crazy arguements with myself. This is my life, my only life and I need to make the best of it and live life to the fullest. :)


  1. I hate my dentist, too. It's his crazy Hitler mustauche...

  2. hang in there... it is a long road...we all know that..! But get back on your wagon and tear that road up girl! take it one day at a time. you can mess up one day, but you can make up for it the next. =)

    (Jack Sh*t, take a razor to the dentists office next time you go... retire that stache for the last time!) hehe

  3. Gotta say I agree with the dental stuff. Actually, my dentist is very nice, I just have a personal phobia about getting dental work done.

    As far as the no longer wanting to be a victim.....I hear what you're saying. Been there, done that. Soooo many times. And only you can decide when you've truly had enough. And it sounds so easy, and yet so very difficult this equation for losing weight, eat less move more, but it really does work. I think that even the most determined among us will have our off days. The most important thing is not to give up. Tomorrow is another day, and another chance for a fresh start!