I have decided I am tired of being a victim. I feel like I am a victim to a lot of things but I am mostly a victim of food. I am cheated by myself because I feel that anytime I get emotional or have stress in my life I turn to food. It is like a drug to me, I can see how people can get addicted to drugs.... because I am addicted to food and I don't think there really is any difference. When I am sad I feel like eating, when I am happy I feel like eating...it is like anything we do revolves around food. Holidays, birthdays, parties....everything revolves around food. I have become a victim...not because I wanted to be a victim but because I allow myself to be a victim. I need to decide that I will no longer allow myself to be this victim. I had a few set backs over the past weekend and it really threw me for a loop and then yesterday I had some dental work and got sick....ugh have I told anyone lately how much I hate going to the dentist?? I only have to go back a few more times and then the dental work will be over.
So my goal is to get healthy, quit letting food dictate what I do and how I live. Change the things in my life that potentially drag me into this rut.... I want to be happy with me and sometimes that is a challenge in itself. I can do this I know I can....my mind is set and I need to quit having these crazy set backs and these crazy arguements with myself. This is my life, my only life and I need to make the best of it and live life to the fullest. :)